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A little insanity by Blutengle [incomplete] by Blutengle
this was requested my ljp236 she wanted to see how i drew things so i showed her clicking the image has a youtube link to show it

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My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast
Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
The last mistake, the choice I made
Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
Nowhere to hide inside my mind
I'm scared that you'll compare and I'll look a lifetime past repair
I second guess myself to death, I re-solicit every step
What if my words are meaningless? What if my heart's misleading this?
I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company

When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight

When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first,
I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
Like never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental health
Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track
I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves
Trade up made up epidemics, pass around prescription pills
But my disorder can't be cured by a bottle, blade, or dose
Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
But I don't wanna let you see that, I don't want my friends to know
Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go

When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight

Try as I might to keep it together
Why is recovery taking forever
Fool the whole world, just until I get better
I'm terrified I'll be faking forever
On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did
All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
All the the secrets silenced by the shame
Don't make me say it [x7]

When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight
Don't wanna be sly and defile you
Desecrate my mind and rely on you
I just wanna break this crown
But it's hard when I'm so run down

And you're so cynical, Narcissistic Cannibal
Got to bring myself back from the dead

Sometimes, I hate, the life, I made
Everything's wrong every time
Pushing on I can't escape
Everything that comes my way
Is haunting me taking its sweet time

Holding on I'm lost in a haze
Fighting life to the end of my days

Don't wanna be rude but I have to
Nothing's good about the hell you put me through
I just need to look around
See that life that has come unbound

And you're so cynical, Narcissistic Cannibal
Got to bring myself back from the dead

Sometimes, I hate, the life I made
Everything's wrong every time
Pushing on I can't escape
Everything that comes my way
Is haunting me taking its sweet time

Sometimes, I hate, the life I made
Everything's wrong every time
Pushing on I can't escape
Everything that comes my way
Is haunting me taking its sweet time

Holding on I'm lost in a haze
Fighting life to the end of my days

Holding on I'm lost in a haze
Fighting life to the end of my days
The three sides of Lisa (not finished) by Blutengle
The three sides of Lisa (not finished)
from left to right:

{the two haired colored person} Me possessed by Hotaru

Black haired person: Mordachi

One in middle holding her head: Me

Blonde: Hotaru

story:

Every one seems to want hotaru out want me like then want me a psycho insane... this is me venting it out and allowing the change slowly.
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Team Killer - The Color Red
i finished the full gif i hope you all like it all of you who are TK fans love this look for it on youtube same title as it is here.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fnw2Q7…

 scared myself when i was making this gif hopefully he won't give me a nightmare tonight because of my stupidity of me scaring myself on g mod with him  i had a underground maze i used to make this gif keep looking im about to put the full gif up soon... geez hes scary in the dark and some how my flash light didn't even seem to make me feel any better....

its a small project i am working on called : Team Killer - the color red 

A team fortress creepy pasta made by: Lemurfot

never heard of TK? (team killer) Here is his wikia tf2freakshow.wikia.com/wiki/Te…

His sad and also cruel story: www.youtube.com/watch?v=58AJ5S…
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hello i have been drawing since i was 3yrs old and i love my work i simply can draw anything you ask me too in fact i stated to improve just when i thought i couldn't do so anymore. i suppose there's always a way up. ask me to draw something for a small price.
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:icongoldendoctor:
Goldendoctor Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2015
How would you react if you were suddenly turned into a mare version of yourself from My Little Pony Friendship Is Magic
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Blutengle Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Me personally. i thought of that alot and i suppose it would take some time to get use to. i always seen myself as a unicorn or earth pony eventully turning to an ali-corn (i know thats not how other people call it) but in short i would be shocked and worried till later on i mean i'd have to adjust from it in order to press forward. i just think it would be hard to draw or play games as a earth pony so hmmm.


Me as a pony: blutengle.deviantart.com/art/L… (with out cutie mark)
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Goldendoctor Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2015
Are you a boy or a girl
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Blutengle Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Im a girl O.o why???
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WorgenMaster759 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'll just drop this here...

www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4h7PJ…
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Blutengle Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i commented on your video thank you so much for making it into a youtube video
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Winternachts Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave. Hug
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Blutengle Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
your welcome Let me hug you!  Bro hug 
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Drakhand006 Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the fav! :)
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Tdf666 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2014
Thanks for the fav :)
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